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Fast Food Redemption: A Poem

By Jezebel Delilah X

This is why you are beautiful:

There is nothing feminine about you

Nothing masculine either

Just broken rocks left over from an abandoned construction                              site

A caterpillar with butterfly wings

Bright colors hidden in the folds of your flesh

Decay clinging to your newly born skin

I was in love before you

With a woman who was everything

But easy

She did the buying

The serving

The cooking

The cursing

The kicking

The fucking

Wrapped delicate fingers firm around my neck

And fed me

Heartbreak and hypertension

Salt and convenience

Water swollen ankles

Puffy swollen eyes

I was steroid injected ground meat

I was artery cheese

I was tepid, two-dollar wine

I was Burger King

Hands out

Belly Bloated

Ashy, blood-clotted

Begging

She kissed my frozen lips

And said

Who needs to live when death is so beautiful?

I smother your history all over my body

I touch you, and I know I never want to die again

I learned how to cook from my momma

Made greens swaddled in bacon fat

Chunky with hamhocks

seasoned with garlic and onion

learned how to validate lies with love

to smile and get what I want

From my imagination

I painted my lips Paprika

Let my heart bleed shades of green over photographs of past lovers

I sprouted life from the soft puddy of my belly

From Google

My wings carried me high

Over chipped cities

And drowning suns

I saw my anguish reflected in cumulus clouds

Sagging with a wet too heavy for drizzle

Painting barren towns with flood and clutter

From fourteen years of girlfriends

I have sinks filled of shaved hair

Layers of dreadlocks seasoned with remorse

Tears spilling down drains that no longer exist

Honeyed chamomile soothing the death stench of discarded futures

From every romance novel I’ve ever read

Peeling tangerines are tantamount to stripping before sex

There is the slow tease of anticipation

The hunger tingling promises all over your body

The intentional parting of lips

The jeweled orange flesh sliding out of thin, sheer membrane

The bursting squirt of citric release

The recipient tongue saturated with flavor

From singing loudly, in a crowd full of people

I’ve allowed my body to jelly

To be sweetened vegetable and jar-clogged

To be spread over toast and to compliment eggs

To me a muddy, tantalizing surprise

To hold complexities, like who I want to be, why, and how

To examine the shifted tectonics, the plains, the fertilized land

To grow life, to sustain life, to live…

This is why you are beautiful:

You are tough

Like kale

Protein heavy

Every thing heavy

Fiber, fibrous, fire

Chewing you feels healthy

So I chew you raw, slow

And hope I never have to swallow

That I never have to digest

That maybe I can just keep you here:

Under my tongue

Between my teeth

Clinging to the bottom right of my chin.

That I can grow you strong

And tend you delicate

That you will grow gentle

Alongside me

In my garden, fertile

Inside me

I will never be Burger King again

**Jezebel Delilah X is a fierce fat femme Faerie Princess Mermaid
Dragon, Hot English Instructor, and contemporary urban hippie activist
who uses literature, performance, storytelling, and flirting to
advance her politics of radical love, socioeconomic justice,
anti-racism, and community empowerment. She is co-host of East Bay Open
Mic, Culture Fuck, a member of the performance troupe, Griot Noir, and
a part of Deviant Type Press.

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